Thursday, February 9, 2012
When I was growing up, a popular 'case out' phrase was: "Do you have an eye problem? If so, you need to fix it." That was our way of saying, "stop staring/looking at me." I still feel that way, even today. Except my issue now is looking people in the eye when I speak. I can do it when they are talking, but when I speak, I look everywhere but at them. I have been practicing lately, but it is the most uncomfortable thing to me. I always feel like the person is burning a hole in my soul. I mean, I can feel my retinas scorch with heat. Also, I think in an effort to stay focused on my 'target', I unconsciously don't blink. Which causes my eyes to get dry. Plus, I lose my train of thought. I look off to reach in my mind and pull up and pull out what I want or need to say. So my eyes end up going every which-a-way, but where they need to be. I see people looking directly in each other's eyes when they talk and feel amazed and envious all at the same time. It is one of my goals this year- make eye contact!